There are days that I come home from work and think to myself, “How can I let this anger go?” When I’ve had difficult days, like the one I had today, my first thought is to tell the world to “piss off”, and go straight to bed. But that’s not the best way to handle things…and it’s not healthy for my mind or my body. And I know that there are better ways to deal with pain or anger.
I called a good friend and we discussed what happened, which helped me a lot. Some of the stress left my body, but my mind was still thinking of pushing this person off of a cliff, so I had to continue to find ways to heal. So I started to play with my always happy little cat, Izzy. That was fun, and it helped, but I was still feeling upset. Not a level 6 or 7, but around a 4, so I still needed to find a release. (When I first came home, my anger was about a 9).
Thank goodness for writing!
Writing my emotions is a great healer for me, because I can put down exactly what I’m feeling, review it, and then let it go. I won’t share with you what I wrote down “exactly”, but let’s just say that there were a lot of words that some would consider “very, very bad”. Or as my supervisor would tell me, “I’ll have to write in your file that you used a bad word.” What am I, six years old? Really. Better make sure that my folder is expandable buddy.
Opps…..just thought of two more very bad words. But that’s okay! I’m comfortable with it and with my use of words. I’ve never claimed to be an angel. I’m a work in progress, but who isn’t?
There are people out there in the universe that are only happy when they see that they have gotten under your skin, made you feel bad, and are control freaks. Those are the worst! But lucky for me, I’ve never been easy to “control”, and I’m not starting now either! There are also people that no matter how hard you try, you may not be able to get along with them, but you have to work with them in the same environment day after day after day. I use to think that everyone has a good side to them, but that’s really not true. All you can do, all that I can do, is try and have as little contact with them as possible, do the best that you can, do your job to the best of ones ability, and pray.
And if it gets really bad, then find a way out. Life is too short to be unhappy, to be taken advantage of, and to be belittled in any way. It’s NOT okay to be treated unfairly. Been there, done that, and not going to do it again.
So now that I’ve helped myself by writing….I hope that you’ll find ways to heal yourself whenever you’re feeling stressed out, angry, or just feeling down about life in general. If you want to share what you do to “heal”, share with me. I’d love to know your secrets!